I Once Was In Love

I once loved a man who made me feel
as big as the earth,
as all-encompassing as the sky: 

I was all he could see.

But what woman wants to feel
larger than a tree
larger than the ocean
larger than
her man. 

So I fell in love with a man who made me feel tiny:
fragile in his big arms
fracturable in his embrace
miniscule
in his
grand world. 

But what woman wants to feel
so easy
to overlook
so easy
to cast aside. 

I am not in love anymore.

I float
Untethered
Incomparable
Looking only through my eyes.

I look to the sun 
to tell me that I’m warm.
I look to my pain
to feel that I’m alive.
I write these words
to show me that I’m here.

And what woman 
wouldn't want to be 
Here.
Exactly
Here.